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Monday, January 31, 2005
thx every1..im ok le..yup yup..haha..dun worry 4 mi..yeah..i'll b fine aft a while de..hehe..so touched..>.<
ok..im gettin bored @ hm again..haha..tot of doin piao theory bt changed mind again..2 bored though sun i was reali interested..haha..everytime my teacher comes i get motivated 2 do well 4 theory..bt lata..sigh..as usual..juz like e o's..tt's mi..gotta change or i'll nv get wat i want.. haha..
ok abt my confession 2 my parents..i haven made it yet..sigh..wonder when i'll get out of their shadows..!! tired yet scared 2 'rebel' mays cos i dun wan them 2 worry..argh..!! bt i decided 2 write a letter 2 them..e part where i gif them e letter..i dun noe..haha..nvm..shall decide another time..juz write e letter 1st..yupx..endin here...
tired of aviodin too...bt wat 2 do?!
thinking of you @ 3:00 PM
Thursday, January 27, 2005
confused..heartbroken..hurt..lost..darkness..useless..speechless..
im so useless..cant even bring myself 2 tell my mum..
ok im still confuse..wat shld i do nw? shld i let go?! i tot i didnt wan..bt my heart n head tellin mi 2 diff tings..which 1 shld i listen?! which 1 shld i follow?! my heart? bt im hurtin.. im lost..or my head? argh..will some1 plz help mi?!
thinking of you @ 1:13 PM
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
ok..2day is e 3rd day im hm liao..wah lao..damn sian..suddenly wish i was schling again..guess i somehw which im in sec sch again..even when i hate e sch..cos @ least there is sth i can do..or rather sth 4 mi 2 do..!! oh well..
well..gotta rush my theory soon..n cramp all e facts into my head..exam in mar..pretty scary bt o lvl results r more scary..haha..i reali dislike doin theory..haf 2 tink so much..worse den maths sia..sigh..bt wat 2 do? i gt 2 pass dis man..yup yup..
tt day met back an old frd..he's gd @ piano even though he didnt learn fr a teacher..i felt so shi bai..aiya..enough of dis crap..dun wish 2 talk abt him or piano oso..shall go find a poem 2 put here ba..yupx..
piano*gal >.<
im sorry...
Is it possible
That someone like you
Could complete me?
You're the only one I want
The only one I think about
The only one I truly love
You've treated me wrong sometimes
As I've done the same
But everyone makes mistakes
And you're not one of mine
Be with me for the rest of time
I'll give you my heart
And you give me your mind...
okiex..back 2 update..haha..2day quite productive..haha..ironed clothes 4 my mum nt 2 bad @ least i dd sth..wanted 2 do my theory bt 2 lazy..haha..oh well..tml mum hm..most prob shld b tellin her ba..i hint 2 her tt i gt guy frdx juz nw..hope she gt it..she ask i everytime online do wat haha..den she say sth like chat wif bf arx? den i dun noe hw come i say gf oso...haha..she ask so gt bf arx? den i juz kept quiet..tml den break e news ba..hope they accept him..bt scared they ask dis ask tt..argh..!! y do i always tink so much?!?!? nvm..
thinking of you @ 9:51 AM
Thursday, January 20, 2005
HAPPY BIRTHDAY dar yen..
2day went nyp open house..i tink it's beta den np lo..haha..mayb cos we didnt enter fr e main entrance of np..haha..oh well..bt den e goody bag a bit suxy? haha..cos juz paper bag..bt aiya beta den nth..wahahaha..didnt reali c e stuff..bt gt 8days sia..haha..oh well..im crazy..met wif aud n carolyn..n..haha..den saw many of my seniors though they dun noe mi..wahahaha..den met up aaron's frdx..yeah..ok la..@ least is gal den i can talk..wahahahaha...she quite nice..hee..oh ya b4 gg in called xiwen..didnt reali recognised him..hee..den aft tt met liao he gtg back class liao..hee..
aft nyp mi n aaron go east coast again..haha..eh..sori 4 hurtin u juz nw bao bei..hope it heals soon..so so sori..went 2 pick shells..hee..2 make present 4 xiao wei jie..bt die la..i dun noe wat 2 get 4 dar yen..shall tink..heex..
i still dun noe wat course 2 study..sigh..dis few wks veri free muz go search n find out more abt e courses liao..yeah..!
piano*gal >.<
wishin u were by my side nw...
thinking of you @ 8:41 PM
Wednesday, January 19, 2005
2day went np open house..erm act go there is meet his frd..*js kor* n his cousin..wahaha..act wanted 2 c e courses stuff de..den he say borin..den ok lo..juz leave lo..anyway all e courses is abt e same de ba..yupx..den saw carolyn n mei yi..haha..den go out saw dar fran..wahaha..gt so qiao ma? hee..den oso saw pricilla bt she didnt c mi..yupx..den wait 4 bus n chat wif fran cos she waitin 4 her frdx..haha..den go cck..pei him go arcade again..*sianx* den go jj..*sianx* cos i dun reali noe e games he play ma..so veri bored there lo..yeah..oh well..used 2 it le..hee..
tml gg nyp open house..yeah..heard tt kat..charmaine they all oso gg..haha..oh well.. tml mayb aft tt go beach..hmm..
haven break news 2 parents yet..sigh..cos these few days my mum like veri tired n stress wif work..dun wan her 2 b more stress..plus lata she get shocked n den mayb i get it fr her? or even worse my dad..haha..so beta wait ba..yupx..dis wk she workin late so doubt i can tell her dis wk..*sigh*
okiex..i'll go find stuff put in blog liao..veri sianx no1 online..wahahaha..tc every1..
piano*girl>.<
thank you bao bei 4 e bottle..heex..
thinking of you @ 6:23 PM
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
im so bored @ hm man..tml n thur shld b gg out ba..juz sch open houses..yeah..tml mayb gg np de..den can finally c js kor..wahahaha..shld b gg wif him ba..yeah..cos he oso wanna c poly stuff.. den most of my frdx in schs..sianz..haha..ooooh yaa.... HAPPY BIRTHDAY XIAO WEI JIE!! haha..tml is step ann bday oso..haha..nw findin ecard 2 send her cos i scared she change hp bt mayb i'll also sms her @ 12..hee..c hw tired i m..hee..den 20th is dar yen bday wor..heex.. act 21st oso some1 bday..bt somehw i cant rem hu..haha..die lo..
ok..im out of words..haha..
piano*girl>.<
bored 2 death..
thinking of you @ 11:46 AM
Monday, January 17, 2005
yest dar aud called mi..den i realised i missed her so much..missed talkin wif her..gossipin wif her blah blah blah..haha..bt nt onli her..i miss every1 i noe..!! esp xiao wei jie..well she was e closest 2 mi durin sec4 yrs..thx 4 ur time jie..den there is oso dar yen..always there when i need her esp in sec3 when... den dar aud *sec2* den all my classmates of '01-'04...sigh..time flies....
den there is oso my outside frdx..i realised tt i noe some of them 4 so long bt i dun reali noe them..somehw i feel like i haf nv been a great frd 2 any1..
sometimes i feel like i let everydown ever since i haf a stead..y m i like tt?! so indecisive..so irritatin..so scared of my parents..so bothered by wat other ppl tink..every little ting i get moody..im such n idiot!!!
sori peeps..suddenly i feel tt way..anyway i shall try 2 make my blog nicer 2 cool myself down..yeah..tc every1..
piano*girl>.<
can u reali protect mi?!
thinking of you @ 4:28 PM
Friday, January 14, 2005
13th jan
went 2 e beach..yup pon sp again..haha..so 1st ting in e mornin went his area..go take his fill ups fr his cousin..den went 2 his house 2 play com games..haha..so fun..den go nyp lo..wah lao..we go there so long waited 4 like 10mins (?) den his turn..n it only took 2mins..! haha..oh well den went town 2 take 16 2 east coast..quite hot leh..some more i wearin t-shirt..den my arm nw gt 2 colours..so ugly..!! anyway we started collectin shells..those small small de..haha..i like.. went beach n saw my pri sch enemy..haha..gt so qiao ma?! hee..well i wun say is enemy la..dun noe wat 2 call..juz tt we dun exactly like each other..yupx..oh well..it's like so long liao..haha..reali damn qiao lo..hee..she recognise mi..bt we both nv say hi..guess we oso dun noe wat 2 do ba..nv expect 2 c each other aft so long..den saw ex-schmate..so qiao..haha both @ east coast..den nvm lo..norm le..haha..nt like last time always run away..haha..yupx.. anyway i had loads of fun..thx precious..hope 2 get those shells back asap in tt bottle.. >.<
14th jan
HAPPY ANNI BAO BEI..!! 23mths liao..so happy..though we haf been driftin..n quarrellin more often nowadays..bt i wan 2 thank you 4 everyting..i love u no matter wat..even if.... i hope we'll get stronger n less quarrels.. >.<
ok abt 2day..i left sp half way again..haha..morin we did some maths stuff..it's fun..we were leadin de leh..den become 3rd..haha..nvm as long as we tried..n we haf fun..! haha..bt we won e best cheerleadin team..haha..yay..! *crazy mi* den ya lo..last day wif e sp ppl..oh well..dis 2wks i haf funs..though i missed a lot..haha..yupx..wishin every1 well..n hope they haf a gd time 2nite @ e DnD which i nv go oso..haha..yupx..im sure they will de..n e leaders thx 4 e hardwork..yupx..
aft e maths ting i left..i went meet him @ lot 1..haha..den watch him play arcade a while den went town..act wanted go beach again bt he in long pants..so nv go..haha..anyway it's so hot..! haha..den go town..treat him eat lunch..den took picx again..haha..i reali broke dis time man..oh well..nvm..worth it..hee..den walk ard..den walk back ps 2 buy bottle cos i 4 abt it..oh ya @ cine saw his frdx..haha..they veri lame de lehx..aiyo..oh well..nvm..haha..there was an ij gal oso dun hu though..she quite pretty..haha..his frdx look diff fr e time i saw them..which is like so long ago..hahaha.. he ask mi go his sch durin CNY celebrations..aiyo..will b paiseh de lo..den horx..i promised my frdx i gg back le..oh well..we shall c ba..haha..yupx..
oh ya..wanted 2 break e news 2 my mum de..bt my dad gt hm early..sigh..sori precious..i'll make sure i say by dis mth..I*Promise...
piano*girl >.<
Hug.Me.Tightly.Like.You.Used.Too...Many.Kisses
thinking of you @ 6:27 PM
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
2day met him..didnt do anyting much la..haha..bt den horx..still happy cos wif him ma..rite? took pic again..haha..nw mi n him siao wif pic..aiyo..no $$ liao..haha..muz save..hmm..tml gg sp..muz go liao..haha..
hmm..wanted tell my mum juz nw..bt den scared again..sigh..when will i overcome dis..i tink when i say dis liao..i wun b scared 2 share wif them other stuff..ya..hope so ba..
k..i shall go find skins nw..heex..c ya..
piano*gal>.<
*smilex*
thinking of you @ 6:44 PM
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
2day wat so much fun man..ah yen dar..u reali miss out on all e fun sia..2day went ard e marintime tt area..den learn more abt e course n stuff..yeah..heex..there was dis fellow arx.. intro all e safety stuff..he damn lame lo..i laughin all e way..nt cos of wat he say..bt cos he laugh.. he arx..reali no comments noe..his laugh is half evil half funny..oh well..some weird laugh..
den went haf lunch le..yupx..heex..aft tt went 2 poly marina..haha..it's @ west coast! was fun man..chelsea, geraldine, sarah n mi sat e rescue boat..damn nice..n shiok! haha..e wind is nice..heex..den ya lo..sat 1 round..they wanted go again..bt i scared cant..den they so many ppl..i dun wan feel out of place..so i juz dun go lo..den lata haf 2 go up hear dun noe wat talk..e grou[s say veri borin de..haha..bt we missed e 2nd 1..we str away go e last 1..haha..it turn out fun!! we sat a pulley? dun noe wat they call la..4get le..haha..den hang ard there till 5.15 like tt..heex..den go off..bt i learn 1 rope trick n a safety sth..haha..nice nice..heex..i tink of 3 courses nw..biz, marine time transport management *is it correct?* n IT..heex..we shall c la huh? heex..
tml i gg 2 pon..haha..meetin him..gg beach..yeah..heex..so long nv go beach le..pray hard tml nice weather..plx...thank you! heex.. >.<
piano*gal>.<
no matter wat..no matter hw we end..u will always haf a place in my heart..i love my bao bei lotx lotx..!!
thinking of you @ 8:12 PM
Monday, January 10, 2005
hmm..i've been gettin more naughty arx..always leave sp early..sigh..ya..den pei him again.. watches seed of chucky..well..i find it more nice den kung fu hustle man..haha..well..it's nt scary bt disgustin man..haha..so gross..oh well..den came out..ah yen dar call mi..say she saw mi haha.. bt i didnt c her..nt fair!! jkjk..hehe..den ya lo..went orchard a while..took pic den gt 2 rush hm..bt den we quarrelled again..sigh..juz when i tot we were gettin so close aft last yr passed..den nearly break up..well..bt sometimes i reali find tt he wan all of mi..i oso gt my life rite?! bt ya lo..i reali wan dis 2 work..so i gt 2 try..we'll c hw ba..or m i holdin on 2 tightly?! i dun noe..suddenly im lost again..i dun noe hu 2 find 2 talk 2 nw..hu will understand mi?!
tml gg out 2 sea..haha..so ya lo..gg haf fun..heex..
wed nt gg again..most prob pei him go nyp 2 apply his course..yupx..bt i still tink he a bit siao..haha..come all e way here lo..aiyo..oh well..it's his decision..sigh..if onli he is more understandin..n well ya..sori dear..
piano*gal>.<
sometimes i wanna let go..bt when i tink of us..those gd memories..i juz wanna hold on..bt m i askin 2 much of u?!
*~*~*~*~*
k..changed e skin...bt still havin probs...so irritatin..hahaha..dis is hw i feel rite nw..bt ya la..i will change it again i tink..dis is tempo..haha..cos cant find 1 in such a hurry..heex..
thinking of you @ 8:27 PM
Friday, January 07, 2005
2day went sp 4 half day? wahahaha..cos veri sianx den mi n ah yen decided 2 go off..rowena oso cos of dun noe wat..oh well..hahaha..den ya lo..met him..pei him till abt 6..cos he gg work ma..den ya lo..saw maybelle nu er..bt she didnt c mi..haha..walk pass her den i realised it's her so nv call her..haha..den saw a choir junior..dun noe her..bt gt c her in choir..haha..sianx..next wk still gt sp bt oso gd la..haha..nth 2 do @ hm..
juz nw go find chai hong jie..haha..talk awhile den dun wan disturb her le..heex..saw pricilla..yupx.. oh ya..nyp havin open house soon..19-20jan..haha..shld b gg wif ah yen dar n him ba..cos he wanna go tt sch though i dun noe y..it's so far sia..aiyo..
well..i reali dun noe hw 2 start a serious 1 to 1 talk wif my parents..argh!! stress man.. haix..tinkin of stay up n write a letter 2 them..erm..another prob is i dun noe when gif 2 them.. argh!! stress man..*sigh* i wanna try do it within dis mth..sigh..hw? hw? hw? will some1 help mi?! oh well..i noe no1 can help..onli myself..
aft e sp ting i dun noe wat 2 do..haha..i dun wanna laze ard..most prob findin abt sourse info ba..den abt jcs..so ya..den still gt piano theory..den muz start learnin house work n do them..wahahaha..
piano*girl>.<
i love my precious till e end of time..
thinking of you @ 8:07 PM
Thursday, January 06, 2005
2day i pon sp..met him..i veri naughty horx?bt ya lo..anyway tml gg liao..haha..went his house.. play com games..wah..e way there is damn far sia..haha..oh well..cos i stupid took mrt..den dun wan my dad suspect so i took fr compass..juz rem can take bus fr ps..stupid mi..wahahaha..den ya lo..lata went JJ played card game..i still veri veri blur wif tt game..haha..go there is 2 meet pricilla de..his frd..haha..she say i cute..i tink she more cute lo..haha..bt she veri knowlegible.. heex..she gave mi advice..lata muz get her contact..haha..make new frd..!! den aft tt went town a while..took neoprint..haha..nice nice..hehe..den go hm le..i went hm myself cos dun wan him waste his ez money..some more he nv work dis few days cos of mi..so ya lo..hee..anyway i oso scared my dad come hm early den come down fetch mi..haha..
tue went town wif ah yen dar rite? den gt 2 girl approach us say they fr some company fr mediacorp..oh man..haha..im like "i so ugly leh.." *tot 2 myself la..they say their com lookin 4 teenagers..den we juz leave our no..their boss will call us..den dun noe wat la..yest n 2day i tink they called..bt i didnt noe..haha..ah yen told mi they called..den ya lo..bt i dun noe wanna go nt..haha..beta nt ba..next time ba..yupx..anyway doubt my parents will let..*sigh* parents again..oh well..wonder if they will call tml..haha..jkjk..anyway i might pick up n hear wat they say..den mayb i'll consider again? dun noe..hahahaha
piano*girl>.<
i miss u so much...tinkin of u always..
thinking of you @ 8:40 PM
Wednesday, January 05, 2005
2day was so so sooooooooo much fun man..hehe..mornin was rainin..so in e end didnt do our rope obsticles..*die..spellin so bad* den we waitin in FC5 lo..haha..was so bored..i was like sayin shld nt haf come..den lata..i was wrong..haha..had fun wif some stud n lecturer? dun noe hu is he la.. haha..den ya lo..we played games..den ya lo..though e games nt new bt ya la..i still had fun..den lata gt lunch break so damn long sia..more den 2hrs..i shld haf gone out wif him lo..haix..bt nv la.. gd ting oso..cos @ least i tried once of archery..it's nice sia..@ 1st so scared..didnt dare shoot.. haha hand was shakin..met a nice stud fr sp..heex..she in archery..i tink she chio sia..heex..act wanted go learn dancin..den saw them dancin..shake butt so many times..haha..den we juz leave lo..hehehe..go archery instead..act wanted leave de..den chelsea pull mi go..cos i pull her go dancin..haha..den juz go lo..i shoot liao..chelsea back out..wah lao..haha..bt nvm la..as long as we haf fun rite?! heex.. >.<
den meet him..he send mi hm..yupx..heex..so happy..miss him..sori dear dear..nv pei ni go town..*HuGx*
piano*gal >.<
sometimes in life u muz reali noe wat u wan..n den go 4 it..!
thinking of you @ 8:16 PM
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
2day 3 fin liao..so damn early..haha..we went excusion..*wrong spellin rite? aiyo* den went 3 places..qian hu fish farm..*quite bored there nth do* den farmart..go haf lunch..*quite ex bt ok la e spag was nt tt bad* den went bugis st..cos they gt link or sth..dun care oso la..haha..dun tink i gg sp anyway hehe..den we can go hm fr there..den mi n ah yen dar go bugis walk walk..she wan buy tings ma..den cant find anyting so went orchard..haha..so happy though leg was veri tired aftwards bt worth it..hee..hmm..den took pic..haha.. so long nv go out wif her le..muz do it more often..den we can become beta den like time ya? hee >.<
sianx..tml mayb ah yen dar nt gg..haix..den i b so bored..bt i wanna go..cos my mum hm tml den i dun noe la..i promised meet him le..dun wan disappoint him..so juz go lo..haha..den aft tt meetin him aft e course again..yupx..den c lo..tinkin of goin wif him tml..bt aiya..they wun let mi go out till so late de..sigh..i reali reali feel like tellin them abt my r/s..bt i dun noe hw start..argh!! so stress..haix..i reali dun wan hide le..i veri tired so is he..i noe..haix..hw 2 start man..i feel like writin a letter...den let them ask mi qn..i ans..they wan scold they scold lo..beta they start it den i start e conversation..bt i oso tink face 2 face tell is beta rite? haix..bt takin a step 2 admit wat i done so wrong is oso improvement rite? sigh..gg 2yrs liao leh..i still nv say a ting..!! i let him down..myself oso..wat shld i do?!?!
hmm..dis poly ting make mi tink tt i more suit jc like..i noe they r discipline more stress..more hardwork..more studyin..bt i cant b in a lose environment..i wun noe wat 2 do..bt i oso dun tink i can make it into e jc leh..aiyo..stress..collect results den say la..haha..yupx..aft e sp de..i muz reali concon theory liao..bt i oso noe i'll b so bored sia..haix..oh well..
ok..xin kor wan mi write sth abt him..done..i mention him le rite? hehe..u tc kor..sori 4 ur damn late pressie..haha..gg 2yrs?k la..i write till so long le..hehehe..
piano*gal >.<
2 yen ching dar: we might nt b as close as b4..bt 2day was a wonderful day..despite e silence sometimes..*smilex*
thinking of you @ 8:21 PM
Monday, January 03, 2005
2day 1st day @ sp was okok la..i wun say it's fun bt i oso wun say it's boring..haha..oh well..we had a small intro..den some lady talked abt admission 2 sp..n courses..den aft tt breakfast..haha didnt eat..den lata had technology challenge..where we had 2 build a structure tt wld support a filled 50ml bottle..hmm..we managed 2 do it in e end..haha..messy bt ya..e ting is we succeeded n haf fun rite?! heex..den oso haf 2 make a grabber..gt a small competition..c hw get e most tennis balls n e fastest..haha..was fun cheerin..>.<>
fin sch early 2day..den met him..den nth 2 do..so decided go walk ard ps a while..haha..nth 2 do.. den ya lo..lata went hm..yupx..tml shld b gg hm wif ah yen dar ba..yeah..hmm..meetin her @ cp @ 7.15 tml..wah..tired..haha..tml muz start revisin theory liao..yeah..
piano*girl >.<
always on my mind...
thinking of you @ 8:19 PM
2day 1st day @ sp was okok la..i wun say it's fun bt i oso wun say it's boring..haha..oh well..we had a small intro..den some lady talked abt admission 2 sp..n courses..den aft tt breakfast..haha didnt eat..den lata had technology challenge..where we had 2 build a structure tt wld support a filled 50ml bottle..hmm..we managed 2 do it in e end..haha..messy bt ya..e ting is we succeeded n haf fun rite?! heex..den oso haf 2 make a grabber..gt a small competition..c hw get e most tennis balls n e fastest..haha..was fun cheerin..>.<>
fin sch early 2day..den met him..den nth 2 do..so decided go walk ard ps a while..haha..nth 2 do.. den ya lo..lata went hm..yupx..tml shld b gg hm wif ah yen dar ba..yeah..hmm..meetin her @ cp @ 7.15 tml..wah..tired..haha..tml muz start revisin theory liao..yeah..
piano*girl >.<
always on my mind...
thinking of you @ 8:19 PM
Saturday, January 01, 2005
BORED!! nw waitin 4 my fam 2 go out..gg town shoppin cos yest nv go..yupx..hmm..dun noe if i shld get more clothes 4 e sp course..cos my clothes all veri childish de..haha..mayb lo..if can find.. or else big headache..haha..
oh ya..HAPPY NEW YR!! hope dis yr will b a beta yr 4 every1..esp those in e tragedy..been hearin e news almost everyday..hmm..im so sorry 2 hear abt tt..i hope their lives will b beta soon..GOD bless them..thank u..
gtg nw..
piano*gal >.<
i miss you precious..
thinking of you @ 2:30 PM
wishing for--*
* new tops/ bottoms/ jumper
* nail polish
* new highlights for hair
* new heels
* new diary (notebook)
* have a beta 2007
* be more decisive
movie list--*
happy feet
open season
Night at the Museum
charlotte's web
eragon
= the holiday =
curse of e golden flower
= zodiac =
= TMNT =
= Ghost Rider =
= Spider Man 3 =